Before you can post or reply in these forums, please join our online community. I'm married 13 years. My husband whom I love very much went away on a boys trip got drunk and went to a brothel. He hasn't admitted to it but his search history said he searched for brothels on the night he got completely drunk with his mates. Hos maps app says he asked for directions to get there. His mates They are all married. He has lied to me before and I believe in my heart that this isn't the first time.
I'm lost destroyed heartbroken depressed and suffer bad anxiety. I'm so scared and find it hard to get out of bed. I have 3 young children and look at them And tell myself you have to pick yourself up and get up and look after your family and then I get hot and cold shivers and become sick I eat and throw up.
I love my husband and believe Im a great wife I look after the house cook clean and run after the kids homework activities etc. I also work. I'm so destroyed when I'm near him I feel secure and when I'm away from him I get angry and emotional.
I have thoughts of leaving him and I cant see myself alone without him raising our kids. I don't want to be without him and I'm struggling to find reasons to be with him. It's a nightmare. I say to myself put it behind you and move forward and it works for a day then I'm back to being helpless. I'm overwhelmed with responsibilities at the moment. Welcome here, and I'm very sorry you are in this situation. You are sounding at the end of your tether and something really needs to be done right now.
May I ask if you have talked with your husband abut this? Without knowing that -and his reaction -it is hard to say that much. You do love him so I guess in an ideal world the matter could be patched up - do you think that is possible or has it gone too far? It sounds as if his current mates are not a good influence. Relationships Australia is a good first stop. They are very used to these sorts of situations, can advise alternatives and maybe get the pair of you to counseling if you think that appropriate.
